Dad, it's almost been a year since you went home to heavenly father. Man I miss you! This past year has been a struggle for me and Steph dad. We both cry over you and every time we share a memory of you I feel this immense pain in my heart. For 12 years I had to learn how to grow up with you gone and that shit was hard. I was so happy to have you home.... Then bam, I was gone for 2 years. But then I came home and we were able to finally get back to living. ... Then that dreadful morning came and Raynor found your lifeless body in bed. He said you looked so peaceful. When my mom called me with the news I heard my heart bake. You took a piece of me that day Dad. Life isn't the same, food isn't the same, music is not the same, hell everything is different. - I wonder if I will ever feel normal again. I loved you pops.